Where do I go from here?
How do I pick up pieces?
I don't know how to continue.

I don't hurt anymore; I just don't know what to do.

I have a new baby cousin, Andrew Edward! And I couldn't be happier! I'll get to meet him in a little over a month; I'm SO excited. I never really get to see anyone younger than 12.

However, lately, my grandmother has a couple with two kids renting a trailer, and she'll occasionally bring over the 2 year old girl and less than 2 months old boy. I also have my cousin, Seth's less-than-3 months old brother. Spencer is precious, though not technically my cousin. (Too much to get into to explain.) I would try babysitting, but I don't know anyone with kids. So there goes that idea.

And as soon as I can, I'm going to get Drew a onesie that says "The Clash Boys Don't Cry." =]

After almost 2 years in a relationship, Jeremy ended it. He's played with my emotions for far too long, and I won't let him do it again. So, I am forcing myself not to think about him, I'm getting rid of the things that make me think of him. I'll find someone who cares about me and how I feel. It's hard, but I know God wants me with someone else, and I'm just waiting for him to show up. For now, I'm going to keep my friends and family close, because they've been here for me for years and they're staying here. Boyfriends come and go, but friends and family are forever. =]